Thursday, October 6, 2011
Talent?
Around an outside fire, puffing on ciggies and drinking bourbon, wrapped in scarves and donning winter coats for the first time last night, Alex and I began the topic of talents. Alex can sing - and well, mind you. I wasn't sure what my talent would be...or if I've ever cultivated one. I can knit, I can cook, I can do lots of things...but that's different than being talented. Alex brought up my ability to write. Perhaps the written word is the closest thing to a talent I possess. So here's my pledge to you: I will work on honing my craft. I will once again blog.
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
Things I Know - Wednesday Edition
June 17th?!
It's been THAT long?!
Much has happened - many new doors opened and many ones shut...all in good time, my friends.
* Being made to feel useful is the best. Useful often breeds some sort of respect - even power. Being used has the complete opposite feeling. The two are very hard to differentiate between. Or they have been for me lately.
Never mind - I'm not ready to discuss the above topic yet. I'm never at a loss for words - this shows you what a mind fu*k the situation has been.
Alright - things I know...today:
* Sometimes a good friend, who knows how much you love Mexican food, Parliament Lights, PBR, sitting on a porch during the first rain of the season, and understands your addiction to the trendy burger joint is more valuable than a gaggle of friends rallying to celebrate you. A good laugh, being comfortable in your own skin and in the company you are with counts for a lot. So what if every other girl bailed on my "birthday celebration"? My yoga-pant-wearing, little dog-toting pal made me feel celebrated - and at ease - a feeling rare around these parts as of late.
* I really do thrive when I take the time I need to decompress. Working from home is proving to be a great situation for doing so. I am not rushing out the door, into my car, into the office, into a meeting, out the door, to a happy hour, etc. I am taking the time to plan things and accomplish them with the tact and level of priority I deem appropriate. My office mate (Reggie the fish) also doesn't gossip much and rarely annoys me with talk of nonsense.
* I am feeling a bit aggressive today. Yesterday was the same story. I'm not naive enough to play dumb to the anger - I know exactly where it stems from. My feelings are hurt and my ego is bruised - although I am not sure I can reconcile the latter. I have no regrets in my 29 years...only perhaps I shouldn't have started smoking all those years ago. Other than that...
* Jealousy is consuming. I know to run far from the gross feeling when it enters my mind. But let's be honest - jealousy happens. So take your freakin' huge ass diamond ring and kiss off (aggressive - I warned you).
* Random thought - related to two separate nights in the last three months - JELLO SHOTS ARE NEVER A GOOD IDEA. Nothing great ever materializes because of their existence. Ever.
It's been THAT long?!
Much has happened - many new doors opened and many ones shut...all in good time, my friends.
* Being made to feel useful is the best. Useful often breeds some sort of respect - even power. Being used has the complete opposite feeling. The two are very hard to differentiate between. Or they have been for me lately.
Never mind - I'm not ready to discuss the above topic yet. I'm never at a loss for words - this shows you what a mind fu*k the situation has been.
Alright - things I know...today:
* Sometimes a good friend, who knows how much you love Mexican food, Parliament Lights, PBR, sitting on a porch during the first rain of the season, and understands your addiction to the trendy burger joint is more valuable than a gaggle of friends rallying to celebrate you. A good laugh, being comfortable in your own skin and in the company you are with counts for a lot. So what if every other girl bailed on my "birthday celebration"? My yoga-pant-wearing, little dog-toting pal made me feel celebrated - and at ease - a feeling rare around these parts as of late.
* I really do thrive when I take the time I need to decompress. Working from home is proving to be a great situation for doing so. I am not rushing out the door, into my car, into the office, into a meeting, out the door, to a happy hour, etc. I am taking the time to plan things and accomplish them with the tact and level of priority I deem appropriate. My office mate (Reggie the fish) also doesn't gossip much and rarely annoys me with talk of nonsense.
* I am feeling a bit aggressive today. Yesterday was the same story. I'm not naive enough to play dumb to the anger - I know exactly where it stems from. My feelings are hurt and my ego is bruised - although I am not sure I can reconcile the latter. I have no regrets in my 29 years...only perhaps I shouldn't have started smoking all those years ago. Other than that...
* Jealousy is consuming. I know to run far from the gross feeling when it enters my mind. But let's be honest - jealousy happens. So take your freakin' huge ass diamond ring and kiss off (aggressive - I warned you).
* Random thought - related to two separate nights in the last three months - JELLO SHOTS ARE NEVER A GOOD IDEA. Nothing great ever materializes because of their existence. Ever.
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